FixarJocke – Version 14.03.21

Hey guys, just a quick update in my life whats going on right now.
For a couple of days I hanvn’t felt so good, might have a infection in my body or something.
My muscle is sore and my throat isnt well either. Poor me haha. But the only one that brings
me up from this boring state I’m in is Max and Caroline hehe I feel so happy when they
are around me. Just look at Max for example, so fluffy even if he really likes to struggle alot
when we are out and walk him haha. I wasn’t really in the mood for a struggling dog before,
but he did what he needed to do outside and we went in. So tired now when I’m sick and I
have now went to bed really really earily lately. I guess thats normal to be in my current state.

Eariler this week I got a phone call from a lady *woho* haha just kidding. She works with
people at my work that have been home from work for along time, and she is trying to help
people out on diffrent jobs when the time is in. So after my rehab I know more (hopefully)
what I can do and how much I can handle without great pain and bursting out in tears. I did
that alot after my day was done at my last job I had in a general store becuse the pain just
gained during the day. And had to sleep it off to make it better sadly.. What a life huh?

Well about this call, she told me over the phone that there is alot of diffrent jobs in my town
where I live. Though seems like all of those jobs are cleaning jobs as I had before that didn’t
work out good for me and my back. I’m thinking like this: I know how its going to be, and
I might be able to work with that BUT for not that many hours per day becuse I WILL get
pain after those days but not as much as before if i decrease the amount of hours per day.
But the best would be to find something that works out for me so i can gain abit more money.
I hope you guys get my message, dont want to be on a workplace where I gain pain and less
money than a place I could handle okay, and still gain more money becuse I could work longer.

Me and Miranda from America are still mailing back and forth and its so nice.
Being able to get back to her and see how she is doing is great. Everyime she tells me something
positive I feel happy for her. Me and her have had some sad years with alot of struggling with our
family (for me just my fathers side) but in the end it all works out good if you stay strong. Though
it feels at those hard times that its never going to stop and you feel to just give up, but time will tell
and it will be better later on (mostly).
For example If I didn’t talk about my past about my abusing father and my childhood, I wouldn’t
be as strong as I am today and I would probbly so shy and frightened of talking to other people.
Becuse all these convos with diffrent people I have had, have made me like superman (not nearly
that strong but strong haha). So thats awesome, dont hold difficult subjects inside of you, you need
to open up and I promise you! It will be better later on..

Enough will me giving tips! MysteriaSecret asked me a random question:

”If you had the chance to move to a magical place where everything awesome you could
ever imagine, existed, but you had to leave this world and everybody here, would you do it?”

I wouldn’t trade my lovely monkey queen aka Caroline or Max or my family I have contact with
for a better magical place. But if it’s so magical and awesome, my family might exist there too?
If so, I would go rightaway! Super awesome, snacks and candly all day and its super healthy.
Oh gosh, would probbly puke all day? But if its a magical place it would be healthy aswell!
Hmm I belive thats an awesome answer to your questino Myst!