Life goes on–Version 14.05.29

So lately I have been super busy (didn’t knew I could manage that while being stuck at home without a work).
But I have been working alot on a webpage as I mention before in the changelogs here on the blog. I belive I wrote
that I would consider doing a webpage for our guild but I started and got help from a fan/friend from my stream.
He helped me out big time on PoE (almost like Diablo III but more in depth and hardcore game).

So here is what I have been spending my time on, lets go with the first design I made.

Uploaded it to my Facebook page (Like it if you havn’t done it yet hehe). And I got a comment, if you ever need any
help with the homepage, just say the word. And I asked him for help becuse it’s abit hard doing everything on your
own and no1 to work things out with. So he made a new design and said that I can rearrange it if I want to.
So this was his design and I picked that over mine, alot more nice and not as simple as what I did.

I will probbly host it when it’s more done, becuse now there is still things to add and it’s not near completed just yet.
Adding stuff later on is on the scheme and I know what I could add, but it feels like my deadline is closing in.
My own personal goal was to complete the site and host it before early access of Wildstar, but I didn’t have
enough time for that. So its going to be on hold for abit, kinda over worked my ass on that site haha.
But it might be me being abit sick also, thats why I feel like taking it abit easy on working with that.
Enough said about that, it looks promising at least.

My lovely girlfriend Caroline made this for Max from a old mattress.
She ordered fake leather cloth and attached it to the mattress and this was the result
Let me just add the progress pictures she uploaded on her Facebook account here aswell.

Nice huh?
And Max isn’t one of those brave dogs, so he have had a distance to it.. Until today!
So after being out for a walk with Caroline, he was tired and wanted to lay down. But the floor wasn’t enough
for him, so I gently walked up to it and lay down in it, both me and Caroline had a smile on our face when that
happen Some days ago I tried to trick him to go inside it with some dog treats, but he just jumped out from
it rightaway. Well he likes it abit now, and I hope he is going to use it at some point.

 

Got a call this morning (like nine a clock, was sleeping ofc) and it was a girl from the hospital.
She was asking me about the trainer I had before and that I might considering going back to him and train.
But it was all up to me if I wanted to, but another person I meet in another hospital said I should stay away
from the gym and take regular walks daily and if I want to swim, I need to take it in my own speed.
So two diffrent things I should be following what I should do, who do i choose to listen to?
Well I trained at the gym for around a year I belive, and almost everyime I had my backpain sky high
and had to sleep it away (only cure becuse I dont have any pills for it). And I didn’t like that method but
I did my best until I heard the other way to work with my body. Regular walks, sounds abit better and tried
it out and still do it (also becuse of Max, so I’m forced to it and thats a good thing).

Anyway she told me the desision was mine and all she wanted was that I should meet him again and talk to him.
But she lay everything up front like I shouldn’t take my walks for training, I should take my training at the gym.
But I explained that I have already tried it for one year (give or take) and this method with walking gives the
same result on my back without adding the pain after my “training”. I’m not stuck at home at all times and
do nothing, I do walk, follow my girlfriend to the store, help out at home and stuff even if I will have
pain later on. But I guess they dont know how my life is like even if I tell them how it’s like being me.
At the end of that annoying call (becuse she tried to talk me over with the gym thing) I desided to
meet with my old trainer I had and talk to him, I know he still care and he wants to know whats
going on and stuff. But I don’t like when people around you try to lay a finger in my life with my
thoughts and ideas, and it’s not becuse I’m cranky of anything. I felt she wasn’t suited for her
job with her attitude. Dont know if that makes any sence but what ever

 

Aside to all the negative stuff around me or heavy things to deal with.
I feel good at this moment and things will be easier soon enough, and that will reveal soon enough here on
the blog. I’m talking about the surprise I wrote about some posts ago and all I gave you readers as hints
was: “It’s expensive and big” if I remember correctly. So in less than two weeks you will see what I mean!

So much is happening! – Version 14.05.18

I’m super hooked for early access on Wildstar! I will tell you why

 

In a game called Wildstar, will I once again lead a guild and I’m kinda happy about being a nice good leader.
I have been leading a guild back in the days for only Swedish players in another game and we wore the best
Swedish guild/clan out there on the server. We kicked people who was using exploits and hacks and
kept our guild clean for a nice reputation on the server, ofc people got banned from our guild
and kicked out after seeing screenshots as proof.

 

People are now voting on what PvP Server we are going to play on.
Facebook page: <LINK>

 

I will consume alot of time playing this game so you guys can feel safe with having a leader that stays.
It was along time ago I now had a good mmo to play again and Wildstar really really realllllyyy suits me.
I could say I could have a subscription for Wildstar just becuse of their housing, but gameplay-wise this
game is really something nice. People are new to the combat system with aiming and dont belive this game
has it all, but it does have it all. It takes some time to get into it if your not familiar with it but its basicly is
like Tera Online (it’s a free mmo if you dont want to pay for Wildstar monthly).

Short facts about me for people who dont know me:
Damaged my back about 3 years ago and have been home since then basicly (tried to work but didnt work out).
Going to a rehab for 6 weeks in August to see what there is to do with my back but will be home during the evenings.
And I’m 26 and live with my girlfriend who tune in on my live stream from time to time.
(She like Chua’s in Wildstar and played Popori in Tera Online).

Having this guild and making it serious, makes me wanna try focus on a webpage maby?
But I havn’t been working with doing that for along time, would be really nice if I could work something out.
Will probbly not be the best one but atleast I wouldn’t have paid someone ells to make it and now when open beta
is about to close. I would have alot of time getting into that, but I wont promies anything but it would be awesome.
And if you guys wanna help me out on it, it would be nice if you sent me a mail about it.

Big good news!–Version 14.05.07

Last weekend I celebrate my brithday with family and friends at our place and 4 people was going to sleep over.
It was alot of fun and I didn’t get as drunk as last time haha, but still it was nice to see them again hehe.
The only uploaded picture I have on facebook that I can copy over here (to lazy to bring my phone here
and transfer some more pictures). So here it goes, I’m kinda wasted here haha

I did stream eariler that day, before they came over and alot of people came to the stream!
I guess it was becuse the titel “It’s my birthday today!” and one of my mods made this picture for me

And it was Divrax who made the picture (one of my mods on the streams)

 

And this picture is totally remade!
This picture is from the start, a photo
that my mom took of me. And becuse
my girlfriend Caroline is called Monkey
Queen on the stream, he tought that making
me into a monkey aswell will suit well and it
was so funny to see the result haha XD
So nice, and this person is called either
Catman or Bobo, thanks for your fanart

 

 

 

Don’t know if I have made an post about the update on any news on the rehab, that I’m going to for my back
for six weeks. I visit the place where I’m going to be at, and talked to a doctor who handle people who come
there with pain in their body. So he wanted to know how much pain I have and where in the back it is.
So I asked him when is all this going to start, and he said “I can’t say exactly 100% sure that you will begin in
August”. So thats good to finaly know when it starts A few months left only and maby after that I can start
working slowly and see how it works out for me. Also going to try a machine with pads that i attach to
my back, that send small amount of voltage into my back and my nerves are going to react to it.
It will help with centering the pain to one of the cores of the damaged place.
And not make the pain goes into my full back when I have a hard time.
Sounds really good if it work ^^

And in around 1 month (alittle more) something awesome is going to happen, so have a look out here on
my blog. I will deliver more photos and stuff and hints about it when its getting closer. We are going to
buy something expensive, I can say that for now XD

Worries? Goal in life? – Version 14.04.24

Old picture of me, it suited for the subject I’m about to write about.

Thoughts can mess you around, making your life a rollercoaster (ha-ha-ha).
I just saw a clip on facebook about a guy who talk about life, hard times,wealth and stuff to achieve in life.
And the only thing I do know, is that my goal in life will be to spend my last time living in Thailand, thats my goal.
Buy a house even if I can’t own the plot (only thai people can) and just relax and live all good. Time will tell if
it’s still a paradise down there in like 20-30 years from now. But leaving Sweden for a warmer place is something
I would like to do, and both me and Caroline just love Thailand and the people. I had that goal in life to move there
even before I went there, and still after being there total of 4 weeks in these 2 years I still know thats my last goal.
In fact thats my only goal in life beside living with Caroline ofc.

And for you guys who asks “What about Caroline, do she want to live there later on?”
Answer: She do want to move there after being there 2 times, she love that place and
she can relax there to 100% and she is sooo happy when we had our vacation there.

To achieve that goal is “only” to save money and why not start saving now?
If I will start saving *counting* 1000 SEK every month untill I’m 50 (24 years remaning) I will
have 288.000 SEK and thats only from me. And I just saw alot of houses around the price we
paid for this appartment. So thats just awesome, save abit more than that per month and it would
be no problem later on to buy something. Also selling our appartment when the time is in, will provide
with alot of cash aswell. So buying an appartment is really an invenstment if you can, one of the only
good things in life to take a bankloan for. A goal to aim for, but there is also one thing about saving
money. Saving money means, I gotta have work that I can handle for those years and that is still a
problem today for me. It’s now 4 days untill a doctor meeting in a town nearby (takes maby 1 hour
drive to that hospital) and I don’t know what they will be talking about still, so as I have said before…
I’m still a questionmark and try to do my best not to worry about things right now becuse it might
be in vain in the end afterall. My girlfriend thinks its unfair I get money and have so much “freetime”
and she works 6 nights a week and get just abit more than me. So works hard and get low paid
and I dont work at all and get super low amount of money. Ofc she knows it’s all becuse of my
injury I can’t work but she wish she had the time I have to do things.

If I could trade my injury and all the times I go around and think about life, people working
and not me, I would trade it for a normal back and go back and working 8 hours per day
5 times a week. But you never get what you wish for, so better off not wishing for anything.
Go with the flow but still have goals in life is probbly the best way to see things.

It’s 8 days left until I turn 26 and that makes me think of, soon 30…
Well thats true! I’m closer to 30 than 20 now, so yeah.. I don’t see that as a positive thing at all.
Playing 50 cent song: ”I’m getting old in here, so..” erhm.. wrong lyrics, nevermind! :P

Made this short clip of all the videos I had on my mobilephone and added music my friend made.
So if you wanna hear more from him visit the link on the youtube clip info tab or just search for: Solestia
on youtube. Really nice music and i recommend you to sub his channel <3

Vaccuum?–Version 14.0.4.11

Slept around eight or nine hours this night and it felt pretty good and my back
is getting better. Finaly I can focus on something ells but my pain again
Lets hope I dont mess it up now before rehab, or maby I should move
around abit more than usual becuse I will be working with a moving body
when the time comes. So it needs to be accurate state as if I was going to
work, right? Becuse if I take it easy and try not to do stuff that might be
bad for my back (as in increasing the pain) they might put something ells
on the paper later on. Yeah I belive thats the best move.

Anyway I just put another short video on my YouTube page haha.
I made another one like this before, but I made part two today

So today we told that other dog owner we met some days ago to come over!
You know if you saw the last post, well it wasn’t a picture of her but yeah, anyway lol.
So it will be abit crowded here later on hehe. 3 dogs, 1 kid, 2 girls and myself.
But I will focusing on sitting right here, and they can have some girltime hehe.
But I will grab a cookie maby PLEEENNNTTTYYYY, MOHAHAHA!

Breed meeting! – Version 14.04.09

Notthing much have happen lately more than taking it abit easier with
moving around alot. Just becuse after a long walk and standing up along time made
my back really stiff, but it was alot of fun hehe. Just look at Max at the left side of the
picture. There was a fence all around the area, so in this place dogs can run free without
any leash. Was the first time for Max so I guess he just did what ever he wanted while
we wore there.

The other two dogs are the same breed (japanece spitz) and Caroline hooked up the meeting
with them. Max could need some friends and they played around but one of the dogs (right one)
wasn’t allowed at all times to play with Max becuse she isn’t normal. I guess she can be abit
protective and agressive if someone doesn’t interupt her. So they told her to quit being akward
and growl for no reason. But everything went well and it was alot of fun seeing Max having
a great time. He is abit layed back and calm when we shower him later on when we got back
but he is just standing still while the water pour over him hehe.

I would rate that day 10 out of 10 but becuse of my back was all messed up and I went to
sleep around 7 or 8 I think. I rate the day 4 maby even if it was really fun overall. But I havn’t
had this backpain in awhile now so I feel abit down about that. But it will be better in some
weeks again. It will probbly “heal” back up again just before the rehab if it’s quickly enough.
I wish it could be abit different for me..

FixarJocke – Version 14.04.01

Time goes by so fast, here is the changelog on the new stuff!

I checked the place out where I might be working later on after rehab.
But I dont know if it will do any good for me there, becuse it’s just cleaning diffrent areas
like schools, offices and some shops in the city i live in. Thats good that it’s local and all,
but I know it wont work for long before my back is going to hit a stage where I can’t take
it anymore just like before. So I have no idea what to figure out where I should be focusing
on doing next. I guess I hafto face the steps when they come later on.. Lets not worry about
that for now, that time will come and I kinda need to work around it quickly when it comes
around the corner. But luckly I will always get the help on a suited workplace for me if I just
ask for it, so I’m really grateful of that (seriously, its like a blessing even if I dont belive in
those things). But in short they said that, I’m more than welcome after those six rehab
weeks are done and if I’m intressted.

I still feel like a big questionmark but I will have the answers soon enough, everything needs time.
But it would be nice to know what my plans is going for laters, but I can’t really do anything about
that just now (sadly). I try keep strong and outlast my pain in my back and try do my best in the
situation I’m in. And about my pain btw! I havn’t been in alot of pain for somewhile now, but untill
today I’m kinda in a big pain (but it has its reasons).

I belive all the walks with Max have made my body stronger to last longer without gaining that pain
so quickly as before. I kinda knew it would help, but not in this rate. It went from being really bad
and after we got max, it just gone better and better. But why is my pain back now you might wounder.
Well today I had to go to this meeting in my old town i used to live in, and I knew it’s going to be alot
of info i already know of, but I had to go there. So i went there and its a long walk there, so I kinda
over did it today. But in a way it’s really good for me to know how much I can handle, becuse it will
show rightaway when I have to travel to the rehab for 6 weeks back and forth.
And thats awesome that they will see that aswell, becuse I will be basicly done when I get there lol.
So they will see in what shape I’m in kinda quickly, and this rehab I’m going to what I have heard
cost alot of money. Lucky I dont hafto think about that, becuse they will stand for it.
They rarely give this six weeks of rehab to anyone, but I’m so young still and I have so many
years to give still. So I understand if they wanna help me out so I can get back to work.
I wish more got this opportunity as I have been granted (kinda sad so many is missing out on this).

I wrote on facebook some minutes ago, that my life wouldn’t be this good if it wasn’t for Max and my
lovely girlfriend Caroline. Max makes me forget my pain even if it’s there, and Caroline is my savior.
Sometimes it’s really hard to try be strong when all this with my pain, work and issues with the the
social insurance that almost cut the ends on me getting any money. But I made everything good
and turned it around and now it’s fine on all ends of the strings. Still there is things that might
change, but only time will tell and thats one of the reasons that I kinda do worry about it.
But as my australian fan on my stream told me, “Stop worry about things that havn’t
happend yet, some things might just be in vain. And if those worries didn’t occur,
you will think back and say; why didn’t I listen?”

So I have been thinking like that, and it have been working for most parts (easier said than done).
My answer was before “If i dont worry about it, I can’t think what I will do if it happends, so I
have the solutions infront of me already”. But then I faced his answer rightaway in my face.
It might be alot of thinking and being sad about things you worry about in vain if it doesnt
occur. Yeah I guess I made my point and that you as a reader got my point. It’s abit
harder for me to explain things when this is my secound language but atleast i try!
*Golden Star for me*

So what happends next?
Well the doctor meeting before rehab starts is at the end of the month (28 of April), so time to
wait again. And I will try walk with Max and try get abit stronger if possible and just keep on
doing my thing. I do feel I’m doing the right thing and that I’m doing good and not slacking
so thats good aswell. I know I didn’t have the strength before to do it, but now when we
have Max I’m forced to do all these walks. And thats the best way for me to get going,
to being forced doing things. Becuse if it was all up to me, I would probbly just be doing
nothing and being lazy. Not saying I didn’t do anything good before we got Max but I
know in the long run it wouldn’t help me that far, becuse i would have stoped doing
those two gym days a week. Oh wow this post is so long, but there is so much to
explain and I like telling about it in details Sorry if its too long for you, but this
is OppaFixarStyle

FixarJocke – Version 14.03.23

Yesterday we went to visit my mom in Göteborg aka Gothenburg (2nd biggest town in Sweden)
and it was the first time ever Max have been traveling with either buss or a train. And going from
a rather small city to a really big city with alot more people around made him abit nervous.

He looked at us everytime he got abit nervous and scared, if this place was okay or not.
And we told him that it was okay and all and in a minute or two while trying to walk away from
the trainstation, it was just fine for him to walk along with us and not just laying flat on the ground
as he did before. The buss was acting abit weird, so much noise from it, and he couldn’t care less
about the buss sound or all the waybumps on the road to my moms place. Such a good boy hehe.

 

The thing about taking our dog to my moms place was abit scary for one reason.
My mom have a cat, and she doesn’t go along with strangers or other animals as far as we know.
That’s her territory and she didn’t like Max at all when he wanted to sniff and play with her haha.
So she become so fluffy and made some weird sounds becuse she was angry or disturbed
It ended good and in the end she didn’t care about him.

Was a really nice day and this day have just past by and I have been playing abit Minecraft on
damnation. Also I played with my girlfriends cusin Niklas on Diablo, some hardcore trying to
help him get to max level before the Reaper of Souls come out. He almost got to max level
in a couple of hours questing from Act 1 to Act 4

 

PS:
When we got on the train btw, the person on the train that looks at your ticket got some nice kisses from
Max She asked if it was a japanese spitz and when we said yes it is, she went down to pet him
and Max just went for it! “Oh what a lovely lady, time for some kissing!” hahaha.

FixarJocke – Version 14.03.21

Hey guys, just a quick update in my life whats going on right now.
For a couple of days I hanvn’t felt so good, might have a infection in my body or something.
My muscle is sore and my throat isnt well either. Poor me haha. But the only one that brings
me up from this boring state I’m in is Max and Caroline hehe I feel so happy when they
are around me. Just look at Max for example, so fluffy even if he really likes to struggle alot
when we are out and walk him haha. I wasn’t really in the mood for a struggling dog before,
but he did what he needed to do outside and we went in. So tired now when I’m sick and I
have now went to bed really really earily lately. I guess thats normal to be in my current state.

Eariler this week I got a phone call from a lady *woho* haha just kidding. She works with
people at my work that have been home from work for along time, and she is trying to help
people out on diffrent jobs when the time is in. So after my rehab I know more (hopefully)
what I can do and how much I can handle without great pain and bursting out in tears. I did
that alot after my day was done at my last job I had in a general store becuse the pain just
gained during the day. And had to sleep it off to make it better sadly.. What a life huh?

Well about this call, she told me over the phone that there is alot of diffrent jobs in my town
where I live. Though seems like all of those jobs are cleaning jobs as I had before that didn’t
work out good for me and my back. I’m thinking like this: I know how its going to be, and
I might be able to work with that BUT for not that many hours per day becuse I WILL get
pain after those days but not as much as before if i decrease the amount of hours per day.
But the best would be to find something that works out for me so i can gain abit more money.
I hope you guys get my message, dont want to be on a workplace where I gain pain and less
money than a place I could handle okay, and still gain more money becuse I could work longer.

Me and Miranda from America are still mailing back and forth and its so nice.
Being able to get back to her and see how she is doing is great. Everyime she tells me something
positive I feel happy for her. Me and her have had some sad years with alot of struggling with our
family (for me just my fathers side) but in the end it all works out good if you stay strong. Though
it feels at those hard times that its never going to stop and you feel to just give up, but time will tell
and it will be better later on (mostly).
For example If I didn’t talk about my past about my abusing father and my childhood, I wouldn’t
be as strong as I am today and I would probbly so shy and frightened of talking to other people.
Becuse all these convos with diffrent people I have had, have made me like superman (not nearly
that strong but strong haha). So thats awesome, dont hold difficult subjects inside of you, you need
to open up and I promise you! It will be better later on..

Enough will me giving tips! MysteriaSecret asked me a random question:

”If you had the chance to move to a magical place where everything awesome you could
ever imagine, existed, but you had to leave this world and everybody here, would you do it?”

I wouldn’t trade my lovely monkey queen aka Caroline or Max or my family I have contact with
for a better magical place. But if it’s so magical and awesome, my family might exist there too?
If so, I would go rightaway! Super awesome, snacks and candly all day and its super healthy.
Oh gosh, would probbly puke all day? But if its a magical place it would be healthy aswell!
Hmm I belive thats an awesome answer to your questino Myst!

FixarJocke – Version 14.03.12

Just jumping into a later version of my life so quickly, I guess thats good time goes by fast nowdays.
Thinking of my rehab is getting closer is a good sign, so for now I’m trying to spend my days sleeping,
playing some games on the computer as always and alot of time with Max and abit more with Caroline.

Early in the morning around 4, I now often go out with Max to meet up with Caroline after she got
off from work. She is scared of being out in the darkness walking home alone and especially during
the weekend after work when some people are out and are drunk and what not. I totally understand
that and I would have been that too, though the dark isn’t a problem for me but I dont trust drunk or
people outside at later times (been beaten down by strangers for no reason before.. so yeah..).

Some of my gaming friends might read this blogpost and wounder, what kind of games do I play?
And I’ll tell you that it has been a boring time for some time now, now lately I have enjoyed playing
Minecraft FTB Unleashed with my girlfriend Caroline aka Monkey Queen and Anton abit.
But also 2 games are soon here to face me, Wildstar do now have a date set but it’s a couple of
months left (been waiting for some time now and I love the game so far). And also the new Diablo III:
Reaper of Souls is soon out (13 days left I belive untill release).

This is all for now and if you have any questions at all, just go ahead and ask away.
I dont mind at all, doesn’t matter what subject it will be, i’ll try answer as good as possible

FixarJocke – Version 14.02.19

Days go by so fast, here is the recent patch notes.

• Information about rehab wasn’t on 28th of Febuary, it was in 28th of April sadly.
• My work emailed me and said they have work in my town here where i live, but yet
  I can’t handle it atm. Need my time at rehab to see whats going to happen or any results at all.
  Though i asked what kind of work, they had more stuff going on other than cleaning
  hallways in diffrent houses (intressting to see what they write back to me).
• Been busy with a game I can’t talk about sadly, but I bet you all know what game
  I’m talking about hehe..
• My lovely girlfriend has now 1 night off from work, so she will not be working every
  singel night in the week. Love the change and so does she

 

 

 

Monkey Queen took Max out for a walk yesterday
and he needed a shower haha. Cute huh?

FixarJocke - Version 14.02.14

In my last post I ended it with writing about the rehab meeting I was going to I think.
So that would be in 3 days from now, but I woke up today (pretty late) becuse my girlfriend though
it was time to go up. And she told me about a letter I got, and it was about moving the meeting to 28th of
Febuary instead of the 17th. Well well, nervous abit to early now I guess hehe. Gotta keep my cool and
just take it as it is when the day is here. Been waiting abit too long for this but I hope it will help me big time.

So I donno really what you guys want to read about, becuse I can show/tell alot about things that
I have experianced so far. Not just about the trip to Thailand, how the holidays was around chrismast
and such, but more in-depth subjects. But frankly I dont know if i got any visitors either, so I guess
I could just write about what ever i feel about untill someone asks about anything or so.

Feel free to comment the posts! And if its about hard to know where to post comments becuse
some things on this site is not translated to English. There is a google translate addon to the
left here on the blog. Just chose what you want

Btw my YouTube channel have now 4 new videos!

FixarJocke – Version 14.02.10

Huge update!
We went from 13.12.03 to 14.02.10 and now i’ll talk about the changelog.

• Christmas spent at our own home in our appartment
• New year was spent out on the countryside with alot of diffrent kind of people.
• Third of January was a day I was waiting for so long and it was time for vacation in Thailand for 2 weeks.

And the last thing will be explained in this text instead becuse I will be adding pictures here in the post aswell.

 

So lets take it in the same order as above.
Chrismas wasn’t planed out to be what we expected, we asked my mom and my brother and his girlfriend if they
would like to come and celebrate it here. But they had other plans, but some of my girlfriend’s family came over
and we ate some nice food and watched some on the TV programs that we in Sweden have related to celebrating.
Swedish tradition is to watch Mickey Mouses chrismas i belive the name is, here is a link to one of the parts of it
that i like ^^ Click here or click here for the full show if the link works –> Click here!
Chrismas was still nice and we didn’t think it would be as good as it was.
5 out of 5 stars i would say

Newyear had come now and it was time to celebrate it with friends, atleast as i though it would be like.
I said around 6 months before to friends that me and my girlfriend was going to gather friends over to have a
party at our new appartment. We even had alot of stuff to serve like alcohol/liqour of diffrent kinds.
But they did need to bring their own stuff though but we had some to give to our guests hehe.
The thing was, none really said they could come and they might had other plans, and some said
its abit earily to say. So becuse none of 7-8 people said anything about they would like to come,
so we desided to go to a party on the countryside with alot of diffrent kind of people.
Was kinda fun, untill we was about to try get a ride home…

There was a guy who walked around there and tried slightly to start arguments and fights.
So what i saw infront of my eyes was that he fistbumped her on the shoulder and she did the same
but did it on his chest (not hard at all). But he wanted to start something, so he poured his alcohol over
her cloths and I stood for 3-4 secounds and though about what just happend. Then I raged abit inside and
walked over to him and said “Why did you do that? She did nothing wrong, what if i did that to you”.
I reached for his can to pour some over him, but he had a nice grip on it and he pushed me back abit
and said “Hey, take it easy” and some people made him leave the room instead of me and him starting
to fight. Later on i heard from my stephbrother who also was there that he tried to make him angry aswell.
So he was pissed and looked allover the place for him, but he left rightaway after i wanted to fight him.
What a chicken haha, start something and flee ^^ Enough about that, it was still a okay night, but there
was one unlucky girl, she got a firework rocket next to her ear, so people called for an ambulance
and her grandparents came aswell and she was gone ofc. Dont know if she got tinitus (lets not hope so).

So I have had been home soon for around 1½ year without going back to any work at all.
I kinda was in a state where i had a depressive disorder and almost got meds for it, but i refuse to get
any becuse I know that I will make it in the end. But later on I wanted it so badly but then they wouldn’t
give it to me. But lets go on, it was really hard for me and i needed a break from the daily life at home.
People telling me what I could alteast try to do at home to help my grilfriend and stuff, when doctors
i meet said diffrent things. It will heal over time, so you gotta outlast it, take it easy and it will be fine.
And some said train your body so it wont affect as much becuse your body is weak now.
I tried to workout for over 1 year with a trainer from the hospital and he gave me a good
training program. But it worked for some weeks and then I was down to zero again if I made one
wrong move or twist with my back. So all the training down the drain righaway..

So I needed to travel away from all and people could serve us instead of having my girlfriend
doing everything and I lay the daily stuff on her back. So it felt good for me also, and it was wounderful.
People from the place we was at last time remembered us and ofc the ladyboy did remember me haha.
We took our moms with us and it was fun, we did alot of traveling (basic tourist things) and it wasn’t really
camping on the hotel and take it easy, it was a rush of events to do but that gave us memories and experiance
to move around more than we did the first time we came to Thailand.

When we came home we started to count how much we could save up for this coming year of 2014.
Caroline want a car and a dog, and thats kinda expensive. But if we saved up enough we might be able
to get both things even if we have a bank loan and so on. And I said i might wanted to upgrade my computer
to another one, so my girlfriend can get the one i’m using right now. But it wasn’t really necessary to get her a
better computer this year for her sake (and i can last abit longer with this computer, so it was for her sake i was
thinking of). So now to the last part with pictures.

 

People asked us alot about if we are going to have a baby, but we are not in that stage of life to get one.
We rather focus more on yourself and travel and get things we would like to get before anything like that.
We would hafto save up really really long time to get stuff we want, and want to do if we would get a baby.
So my Caroline aka Monkey Queen said she rather get a dog instead of a baby and that could be our little baby.
And now we got ourself a puppy and we called him Max. If anyone would like to know why we choose that name
just comment and I’ll know what to write about in the next changelog. Here is some pictures of Max and by the way,
he is a “Japanese spitz” <- you can click the link if you would like to get more info about the breed.

When we picked Max up and went to his new home. He was very calm but did shake abit during the trip home.


Before he learn where to do his needs we had some newspaper on the floor just incase of accidents.
But now these 3 days he had been super good and I atleast belive he knows it’s outside and not on
a newspaper haha. So he really love to roll around in the snow, so fun seeing he play around.
But he kinda windup and is really hastey and it takes some time to calm him down even if
we go inside later on. So we kinda need to keep him steady and play but not too much haha.
Also he is so young, so he can’t do too much outside just yet (only about 10 weeks old now).
So longer walks and play around abit more lively later on when he grows up.

When I was out with my girlfriend, my brother and his girlfriend, Max did his first faceplant but I missed it.
Caroline saw it all and she burst out in tears and laughed becuse it looked so funny. He jumped off the
walkway brick down on the road with his face first as impact haha. So this is what he looked like when
we came home and I had to take a picture before Caroline washed it away haha

It is really alot of running out now when he is a baby, becuse he cant last that long yet with his bladder.
Time will work that out, and we dont hafto go out around every hour as we do now. I wasn’t really
into getting a dog but Caroline was. So I said your taking the dog out and all that but I can help out
if needed but not that often and so on, becuse I dont really want a dog, but if you do i agree on it.
But it was alot more fun than i though it would be, so I do go out with him as i see it alot and wipe
off the paws from dirt and if they are wet from the snow/rain and such. But Caroline fix with the
water bowl and food walk with the dog abit more than me.

So as you already figured out, I had so much to do lately and I havn’t really felt that I had any
”freetime” as before becuse of everything is happening with a shortnotice from eachother.
And I kinda want to be prepared on stuff otherwise i could get nervous and my body just
dont like it, hate that feeling. So I kinda just noticed I havn’t update since a long time ago now,
so this is a short story about it all.

If you have anything to ask about my trip to thailand, why the name Max on the dog or anything at all.
Feel free to comment (you dont need to write your name if you dont want to). And for the record haha,
for the person who commented “Livingroom without a sofa and TV?” thats fixed aswell now